Now I have been reviewing my thoughts these past 2 weeks on my habits and what I've been doing and it seems like I have a lot of excuses for NOT doing some of the things I've written down that I'd like to do. I haven't been doing my Insanity, content writing, pomodoros, and many other things.
Overall this month has been a bit of a wash and I think I'll have to stop beating myself up over it and just accept that I probably need it. I know I need that vacation time, even though I can't really consider this month "vacation" since I'm being hard on myself about doing it but it has been relaxing to just say "meh" and chill.
A lot of it is me sitting around thinking, "Well, I've finally done it...after 6 months of hard work I've finally got to the point where I can get a job that I want!" I'm getting the feeling that because of the fact that my life is about to change so drastically, I've already begun distancing myself from where I am now, and it's causing me to want to just push the fast forward button and that's exhausting.
I finally did a marathon of Game of Thrones. The first time I've let myself watch tv shows since I deleted everything back in January. I have been getting tons of inspiration from watching TED talks and other various things.
Overall, I still have some waiting to do (job wont start until Sept) and there are a lot of questions as well...but overall I am really excited.
Hopefully I can get through this massive annoying exhaustion thing where I just randomly can't seem to get out of bed, and then the next day I have tons of energy. I don't get it. I've been great for 5 months but the middle of May is when this really started happening.
I'm not sure if it is mental, physical, or both.
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